Here I sit in the dark quiet 6 minutes to midnight my mind flooded with the painful remnants of the past few years thinking – what feeling, what emotion should I allow my heart to feel. Is it regret? Regret for all the bad choices I’ve made that led me to so many hurts, so many nights of silent and sometimes tearless crying myself to sleep? Maybe. How about disappointment? Disappointment for all the times I unlocked my heart to loving deeply and without restraint only to find myself alone again? Perhaps. Can it be fear? Fear of making the same mistakes? Fear of leaving myself vulnerable? Or fear of failing, letting not just myself down, but those who have placed their trust in me to be strong? The truth is, tho I would allow it, my heart won’t have any of that. Not now. She pines only for calm. The calm that this dark quiet breeds within me. A calm that saves me tonight.
Comfortable is a nice word. It is the only word I can use to describe him. I don’t think I’ve ever felt this way. He’s such a chill and laid back soul. Great influence on my sometimes crazy hectic life. His hugs are amazing. He towers over my tiny frame. When he takes me in his arms, there’s no denying the goodness in feeling his warmth. His voice puts me at ease and quiets the many thoughts that occupy my mind throughout the day making me feel free, weightless and unburdened. When he sees me he immediately moves to massage my shoulders, neck, caress my face…sweet and caring. I will admit that I’ve begun to feel a bit anxious and scared, but must stop myself and just take things as they come – go with the flow. I do not want to spoil anything and so I decide to follow his lead to enjoy this as it is – Comfortable.
Most parents discourage their kids from gaming – I don’t. I always tell my kids (and everyone else) to follow their passion – even if it is gaming. As far as their kids’ career choices go, parents are worried about how much $$ they will be making in their selections. In recent reports, analysts predict about a 9% growth in the gaming industry to exceed $76 billion through… (more…)